Wednesday, March 23, 2011

In a daze

Salaam Alaikum everyone....

I sit here in a daze.  I still do not know what to do with myself.  haha.  It has been 4 days since I found out I was pregnant and I still feel like its a dream.  Mashallah!!  I am forever gazing at the "stick".. (yes, I still have it...cant bring myself to throw it away.  It's almost as if it is a reminder for me)  I will look at the paper the Dr. gave me..  In big letters on the lab paperwork it says..  PREGNANCY POSITIVE.

I feel as if I can cry and laugh at the same time.  I am scared and unsure of the future.  I dont do well with change..haha  I guess I will need to start adapting hu?

As for the news with the co-wife, she will be coming here in July, Inshallah.  I am actually looking forward to it as her and I have formed an amazing bond and friendship.  Since my family is not here with me, she is the Sister I need right now.  Mashallah!  My husband is working harder and harder lately and doing his best to get his businesses in order since the recent disturbances in Bahrain.  It really would be nice to have someone here with me that knows what I am going thru.  Someone that can help me out.... Inshallah, it will work out.  Allah knows best.  He has created a plan for us all.  I pray every day that I dont let HIM down.....

I am starting to feel some of the effects of pregnancy.  Now that the cold is going away...  thank you to all for your home remedies... I found that the ginger helped a great deal.
I dont have much of an appetite and my energy is pretty much zapped out of me.  I am pretty upset with myself for not loosing the weight I put on since I got married (30 lbs) before this pregnancy.  I can only imagine what I will be like in the upcoming months...ughhh... Allah knows best!  Maybe the extra weight is needed to ensure the healthy pregnancy...we never know what is bad for us may turn out good.. I keep reminding myself to this.  My top half  is no longer me.. haha.  I think they were switched out while I slept. They are killing me!  I really dont think they belong to me..hahah  I will check the lost and found and see if someone lost them.  ;)

Anyways...thats me today.

Here is a nice video that I came across... Enjoy..

15 comments:

  1. Masha'Allah what a lovely video!! Thanks for sharing.
    While reading this, I thought to myself that you are a very strong woman :) Masha'Allah!! Take care, sister and congrats again :)

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  2. @rose water... Your welcome, I am glad you liked it.. :) I dont consider my self a strong woman, I have just come to the point in my life to live the the time I have on this Earth being the best for Allah swt. I have spent too long questioning things and arguing and debating the will of ALLAH swt that I have forgotten that our ultimate goal is Jennah! INSHALLAH!!! I am a much happier and healthier person when I submit completely to HIS will...It makes me a better, wife, daughter, sister and friend...and most of all , Servant of ALLAH swt!! ALHAMDULLILAH.. You know, my husband and I tried for a year to become pregnant. I cried, screamed and blamed ALLAH swt for putting me in this life..may HE forgive me. Every time we were going to go thru fertility treatments, something came up. We never went. My mother became ill and I knew at that point I needed to change my attitude. I prayed to ALLAH to forgive me and help me become a better person. I prayed that HE show me that my husband is just a man, a man that HE created. I had to know that polygymy for my husband and other men was a degree from ALLAH.. how could I make this haram??? Surely ALLAH in all his glory and wisdom knows better than I. At that point, I decided to become friends with the Sister. Love her more than for the sake of ALLAH swt...bring her into my family with open arms. My life changed at that exact moment..... My mother recovered when Dr.s didnt think she would....my husband and I grew closer together, and I was blessed with a pregnancy I wasnt sure I would ever have. So you see, its not that I am strong, its that I have become the person ALLAH swt always intended me to be. For that I am forever grateful....

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  3. I still have both my pregnancy sticks that read positive. They are in my boys baby album memories along with the 3D CD and pics of them in me.

    They are 3 and 18 months. Keep every memory...their hair from the first hair cut. Nails from first nail clipping...clothes they come home from the hospital with...etc :)

    They grow up way too fast...

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  4. Aww I can tell you are so excited :) Mashallah! How far along are you?

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  5. Wa alaykum as salaam wa Rahmat Allah wa Barakatuh.

    You seem to be controlling my taps these days, because I am crying again, mashaa'Allah.

    On the authority of Ibn Umar who said: ‘A man came to the Prophet -sallAllaahu alayhi wa sallam- said: ‘O Messenger of Allaah! Which of the people are the most beloved to Allaah and which of the actions are most beloved to Allaah?’

    The Messenger of Allaah -sallAllaahu alayhi wa sallam- said: ‘The most beloved of the people to Allaah are the most beneficial for the people. The most beloved of actions to Allaah –Azza wa Jal- are to cause happiness to reach a Muslim, to relieve him from a hardship, to settle a debt for a Muslim or to repel hunger from him. For me to walk with a brother in order to assist him is more beloved to me than to make ‘Itikaf in this Masjid (Masjid al-Madeenah) for a month.

    Whoever holds back his anger then Allaah hides his mistakes. Whoever suppresses his anger – even though he is not scared to show it, but withholds due to the truth – Allaah fills his heart with hope on the day of Judgement.

    Whoever walks with his brother to assist him with a need until he has helped him completely, then Allaah plants his feet firmly on the day people will not stand firmly. Indeed bad behaviour spoils good actions, just as vinegar spoils honey.’

    No. 906 Silsilah Ahadeeth As-Saheehah

    Daisy, my beautiful flower, you most certainly have pleased Allah because you brought me GREAT happiness reading your comment. It really deserves to be its own post. You also removed a hardship from me, because I have been sitting over here wondering what I could say to help you see that reality...but Allah puts everything to rights. May you always remember what AMAZING things Allah sends to those who truly put all their trust and faith in Him - ameen!

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  6. Thank you Mai... Yes, I am working on a post concerning my "transformation" Inshallah...when I can break myself away from staring at the "stick" or the confirmation paper, I will finish it...LOOL Yes, I am amazed at my own transformation. It's as if ALLAH waited for me all this time to stop with the whining and complaining and embrace my life, my husband and Islam...when I did...WOW!!! ALHAMDULILLIAH..All my dua's were answered...

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  7. @Amal...Yes!! I am very excited!! Mashallah!! As you can see from my little baby widget on the left part of my blog, I am still early into my pregnancy. I have my first OB appt next week so I will know the exact dates. I suspect 6 to 7 weeks now. We will see.

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  8. Daisy,

    I have read your blog for a long time and I just wanted to say "Congragulations" on finally becomeing pregnant! :)

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  9. @Zana.... Thank you very much :) I am happy indeed! :)

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  10. - Dear Daisy! Thank you for your reply on my comment! I read it a few times and all I can say is indeed MASHA'ALLAH :) <3 Have a beautiful day and I hope you're feeling well.

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  11. Congratulations! I am so happy for you!!! I think I told you in past comment that many of my little "new moms" got pregnant as soon as they relaxed. Funny how "perfect timing" is not always what we think it should be... ;)

    I have been in on quite a few deliveriess ( perhaps 6,000...) so if you have any questions...let me know! :)

    Hugs and many congratulations to you!

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  12. Just looked in at your blog, Masha'allah, soooo happy for you sister, i could do a happy dance, i was really hoping you'd be blessed soon, Masha'Allah.

    May Allah SWT bless you with ease and give you strenght and patience through out your pregnancy. Aameen.

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  13. I was away for awhile and had to post officially here, I have missed you beautiful. CONGRATZ!!!!!! so happpy for you. It will take me awhile to read the blog and catch up with the goings on..i missed so much

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  14. Welcome back Jaiyana!!!! Lots of hugs to you...Missed you too!! Dont stay gone so long next time.. :)

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  15. May Allah make it easy for you, and reward you good.
    You are a very strong woman, mashaAllah!!

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