I was just sending an email out to a friend and I signed it my "Muslim name". Then, I sent one to my father and I signed it my "Christian name".......hmmmm
I am confused... Who the heck am I?? loool Sometimes I forget who knows me as what. My family back in the States call me my Christian name while friends and family here only know me as Ayah. All of my legal documents have my birth name. Even my marriage contract. The only thing that has Ayah on it is my Shahadda. So, where does that leave me?? Confused, all the time..lool
I took the Muslim name Ayah because of its meaning. Signs and proofs from Allah, thats how I felt when I came to Islam 2 years ago. He gave me signs and proofs that this is what I needed to do..Alhamdulillah! I believed it would help me "blend in to the Muslim society" better. Now I am wondering if that was such a good idea.
I think we are all unique. Why try to change who we are to fit in? Shouldn't I have learned this in High School?? lool I miss my old name, my old identity. I believe I can be a good Muslim and still hold on to my birth name. I mean, its a pretty basic American name, nothing against Allah or his messenger(Pbuh). My problem is this, how can I say, "Well, Ayah was nice, but I prefer you call me (insert name here) now". My husbands whole family know me by Ayah, some dont even know that is not my birth name.
The point I am getting at is I dont think it is necessary to change your name when you become a Muslim. I chose my name Ayah because it meant something special to me, and I was told it was a good thing to do. Now I am having doubts.
What do you all think???