I am going to discuss what effect stress has had on me in my life. We all have stress and we all cope differently. I am only speaking for myself. I am going to be honest here as I am obviously not managing it well on my own. I need some help.
Two years ago I lost 60 lbs, quit smoking, quit my job, got a divorce, became a Mulsim, moved the the middle east, got a new job, got married. Wheeewww....All of this in 2 years?!!!
Now...2011 .. I have gained back 40 lbs, want to quit my job, chew my nails off to nubs, my stomach burns as I feel the acid burning away my insides, my skin looks awful, my body hurts to the point of some days just standing in the shower crying. My muscles in my neck are so tight its like i have tennis balls in there. I can barely turn my head from side to side. I have this impending sense of doom that lingers over me like a Thunderstorm cloud. This feeling never really subsides. I shout, I cry and at times I feel that I am not myself.
When I do fall asleep I do not sleep. I toss and turn and have visions of Board Meetings and mean Arab men shouting at me to do this or do that(work). My periods have become irregular ranging from 22 days to now 31(still waiting) and negative pregnancy.
How I cope. I go for massage for my muscles which seems to be a slight relief. I read the Quran which helps ease me to a degree but then I just end up with a head full of questions so I put it down. I try to exercise but find myself saying to heck with it because by this time my stomach, back or neck is burning.
I am quitting my job which will be A HUGE relief for me...Alhamdullilah! This is a major source of my stress. I cant even begin to tell you what I indure on a daily basis. I am surprised I lasted this long. No wonder I am a wreck. Next, I am re enrolling in my gym. I feel that this will be a place I can go after work to just be with me, my ipod and my treadmill. Our new house is within walking distance so this will be good for me.
Anyone have anymore suggestions for me? I could use some help....especially on the body pain. It's too much...