One month and counting. One month before my husband gets married. I am having my ups and downs with this. I was hoping one day he would just say, "No baby, you are all I need." but with the plans that are being made, I don't see that happening. So now I have to switch my mindset to this is really going to happen to me. Daisy, this is your life!
I have my good days and my bad days. I tend to freak out at the late night click click's on the computer and have voiced my concern over the phone sms's. He informed me the other day that she said she feels like he is already her husband. I said, Excuse me?! Ahhh , no she isn't! You are my husband and until you do the contract and meet all the conditions, she is still not a mahram to you so I think its time to cool it. I agree with a "get to know you phase" but then I think its time to "^%$#^ or get off the pot!" (American saying) So he agreed and things seem to be a little better in our home.
I will write more later about my future co wife when I actually know more. Right now I am on a need to know basis and I really don't want to know much..hahah. I am staying out of this one from word go. I think it is better the less I know at this point. My body is going thru too much stress as it is.
On another note, we are getting ready to move into a new flat, really excited about that. Learning a little more Arabic, had 2 interviews for a new job at one of the Worlds Largest Banks! WOWOWOW!! And I had an awesome birthday and my wonderful husband bought me an Ipad! LOVE IT!! The IRS is now completely paid off and I now officially have moved on from my old life. This was the one thing that still tied me to my old marriage.
So,over all, my life is ok. What will happen in the next few months? Probably a few more freak out sessions and me threatening to walk.....who knows...hahah