Sunday, October 24, 2010
Going...getting ready...so excited...NOW NOTHING
Salaam Alaikum everyone.
I am going to switch gears a little and hit on a new topic. The mahrem system in Islam. I get the whole "it's set to protect a woman...yada yada yada.." My problem lies is should this be in effect for me? haha
Here is the story. I haven't seen my family or my country in over a year. I miss them both terribly. I will start my annual leave the end of this week. I only get this once a year. So, if I don't go now I will have to wait until next November to go. My company gives me one ticket home a year. Awesome deal. So, ticket booked, 4 days until we leave, already started getting things in order, family is looking forward to seeing me and meeting my new husband, ........I was told today that we can not go. The time off my husband expected to get was not approved. Cancel plans. I cant even go by myself for fear "something may happen". Really? Ok. This is my country, my family. I am a 30 something year old woman. I have not been Muslim my entire life. Just the past year and half. I am used to doing things for myself. I can navigate a huge international airport by myself. I am not your typical Arab girl that doesn't even speak in public. Why is ok for me to function as a normal human being when its convenient, work, store etc...but if its something like this, he gets all
"Religious and protective" over me. If he is that protective, why am I working? Why do I work with out Niqaab(but wear it everywhere else)... Mix with men for my job...Why do I drive? Why do I go to the store on my own?...You get my point.
You know, I am beyond irritated right now.. Pissed actually. Sad and hurt. He can travel all over to differnt countries to find "number 2" but I cant even go see my country or my family?....... Really? This is my life? Why do I put up with him searching for another woman to sleep with, not let me travel alone to see my family.....? Do I have a sign on my back that says "I like to be walked on?" I am really re thinking this whole situation......Damn you Satan.. Get out of my head!
Seriously......The urge to slap someone is still there....